JefeChief

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x7c-QnfCQBQ I made a rap song with uberduck. yes, im a creative person. enjoy!....

A little thing, for Tienala to cheer up. or.. anyone who feel the same.

Hey, everyone who still here.

Let's talk about community stuff. When i was a child, I was discovered People who did Arts, and They are gave a boost to my creation. Then borned my own Sona, named Chief. It's all because i was a fan of a 'Husky' artist. Of course my first Digital Arts was really.. bad. But i loved to do, At least, i had problems with my imagitation, and somehow i needed to draw out my own world, and share it. I met lot of nice people, and i called them .. friends. They inspirated me, and gave some attention. In real life, i always been alone, with no pals, or friends, not even in school, and i was always just standing in their way. I figured out this, when I continued to study in the capital city. I was always in safe, and i met good people before, and .. like i'm was moved out of my own safety box. I was met the real world, and experienced how people can be evil, and malicious. I just wanted a graduation, but i got a depression at the end. I always standed up, when people tried step me into the ground, i felt it's a shame to giving up. I standed up and try again again, again and again, with smaller and smaller hope, and life-kind. I was falled in love with a nice blue eyed angel, who always kept me alive. But Love is painful when you realize it's a fake, and they laugh on you, and everything will be broke inside you. My called friends slowly left me, because i was a monster. I was really cruel, and naive. My depression made me obsession to hurt myself, and others. I noticed too late i need to go home, and then i already said: I GIVE UP. Days, Weeks, Months, Years went away, and i did nothing, just i was in my room, in the dark. Till, my grand mum had sick of cancer, and she was died after a year. The community where i grew up also died, I can't feel any more the flame to make arts, and share. DA has been overgrown, and losed it's charm. I know some old friends, who still here, and maybe they less hate me. I'm still alone like at the beginning, even i have someone to love, and talk. But .. if i lose what i have yet, then i will have nothing, no friends, no job, no chance to be happy life. I really .. want to experience things, and maybe.. i looking for awnsers. it's sounds scary, or weird, but i feel something weird, like .. thirst to fall depth in my soul,

and that's why i desire to be ...under of weed? Yeah, i want try out drug. Not for my sorrow, not for my loneliness, it's all because i wanna understand my feelings, and my soul. I always choiced the harder way, even it's not the best way, but always i do what my heart tells me. I always help people, if they turns into mistakes, like me. I give them a chance to change. I'm changed a lot, even some people still think, i'm still that motherf*cker, what i was been, before they left me long long time ago. I don't know how much i changed, but i want to be better than my teenager myself. I HAVE mental issues, and i HAVE anxiety still, my depression still here, i afraid of the people, with good reassons, but i just wanna be happy? i guess. I know people have the same problems, with same life, or worse life than mine, but yeah, i feel that. The community where i found myself is gone, and less people i have. But i have good memories about them. and yeah.. that's all..

Hi guys. How ya been?

I was search old art stuff and i realized Something not the same as my DA begining. Where is the comments? Where is the Community who follows you, and makes friends? Seems everyone moved from this platform. As me tho, i using few times, some reasson. (I don't like this new eclipse shit, hard to use) I missing lot of buddies, who was inspirating me, like Shadow-D-Husky, or Danno1991 I happy though some friends still here, like Tienala , FaraWolfdog , TheyCantHurtYou and Ghosty88 ^^ thanks guys <3

Still i feel the page ded, It is grew to a social media and losted the community feeling. What you think about this?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wKsIYH_Pl10&feature=youtu.be&fbclid=IwAR2cYUVsVX8S2G5UFxexo2UlWBve9X4Uj8iAVCdSdzO7_LTOWABFwyP8wn0